self
Comments 12

P E R S O N A L : Self Reflections

Whether it be a big thing or little thing, life tends to knock you around a bit every now and then. Shake you up. Make you think about the aspects of your day to day proceedings and puzzle you. Ideas are formed, questions to yourself are raised. The over thinking begins, perhaps a bit of self doubt. I start asking myself a million things I know I shouldn’t worry about…

“Emma, should you be doing what you’re doing? What is really going to make you happier? Is there more to life than the mundane? Do you need to stop and reflect more often? Are you choosing the right people and situations to surround yourself with? Are you working hard enough towards goals and dreams? What do you really want to do with your life?” 

Questions that probably cannot be answered with a simple yes or no, but make you stop and look at yourself as a person. Does anyone really know the answers? I find myself thinking about the “answers” a lot, or versions of what could be. Brains are a tricky body part, aren’t they? They confuse you.

The question of what do I want to do with my life; I’m sure on paper it’s all nutted out. Or the traditional way of living anyway. Study, a nine to fiver, relationship, engagement, travel in between somewhere, marriage, babies, raising said babies, more babies, growing up, getting on. That is perfect for some. But do I really want that? I still feel like a child most days, I can’t see myself plucking one out of the sky anytime soon. And marriage – eek! Let’s not talk about that. The travel sounds good, really good actually. I’m dying to get on the plane for our next escape. March cannot come sooner. I feel free on holiday. Carefree. I love discovering new cultures and experiencing new ways of life. I feel inspired on holiday. Fresh perspectives are formed. It’s exhilarating. If I could work for half the year and travel for the other I would be a very happy soul. E and I travel particularly well together too. You have to be able to travel with your partner. She’s a great commander on the travel front. I’m like an animal escaped from the zoo discovering a whole new world for the first time. She keeps me grounded. I like that. I need it. I would have probably been run over by a Tuk Tuk by now if she didn’t keep an eye out. Can I just focus on the holidaying for now? I guess the rest will work itself out in time. No use fussing about it, right? As long as I’m happy about where I am now it’ll be okay. 

Talking about the mundane being enough – well, the things I do in my everyday life make me happy – as mundane as they may be, they are comforting. For example snapping a photograph of my outfit daily for my Instagram… Some people may find that mind numbing and a waste of time, but for me it’s a way to organise my wardrobe, rediscover what I do have and take part in an online community challenge. I feel included and have met some beautiful people via the internet. They inspire me, and my styling skills. It has just become a part of my daily routine, like cleaning my teeth or showering. Even on days when I’ve been hung over or sick I’ve still snapped a picture, because as dull as routine can be, I like my routine. I guess it’s not mundane if it makes you happy, right? 

Thinking about the people in my life, I’ve said it before and I’ll say it again. You meet every single person for a reason. No one knows why in the beginning, but as time goes on you start to work out why people come into your life, and why they leave. Some friendships are forever, some run a course, some surprise you, others feel like home. Every friendship I’ve experienced has taught me something about myself too. I have friends who I want to be more like. I wish I had their drive, passion and out look on life. Others have made me question parts of myself in both good and bad ways. Some are just perfect for ridiculous conversation when you want to escape. Every person has a purpose. I’ve also noticed I’ve been placed in situations where perhaps I can teach people a thing or two. That’s even more interesting. Watch this space.

And the question of what will really make me happier in my life? It’s the hardest one to answer. But I do know the only person who can change my life and perspective is me. Things and people will get in the way and it’s a challenge, but it’s worth the striving. I wanted to leave you with a few quotes that I’ve been loving lately – hopefully they get you thinking.

            
Do you self reflect often? What’s worrying you right now? What questions are you constantly asking yourself?

E x 

Advertisements

12 Comments

  1. I thought about this for a second and I am happy to say I don’t feel like I have any pressing worries at the moment (when I don’t futurise about my toddler daughter in high school). Questions I ask myself are: “why can’t I be someone who enjoys running/healthy foods/cooking?”

  2. Just go by feel!! Change can happen at any time. Follow your instincts and the rest will work itself out. I think we are all bumbling along really! Do what makes you happy 🙂 xx Nice post!

  3. twenty says

    At least here in Australia people get to think about what they might want to do beyond simply surviving another day like so many have to in war torn countries or places where people are starving. Our mundane would be like a gift from above to the aforementioned. Think of these people and it puts things in perspective. We are soooooooooooo lucky, we can do whatever we put our minds to, within reason.

    Love the brilliant pic at the top of this page.

  4. What a beautiful post Em. I totally share your sentiments and had similar thoughts when i wrote my first blog post on what it means to be a free spirit. I think u are a free spirit too…….I don’t think u would conform for the sake of conforming. I love going on holidays too – getting inspiration and seeing things with fresh eyes. Travel is good for the soul. I think Em, as long as you remain true and authentic to yourself, that’s where you will find happiness. Which u are. U’re amazing xoxo

  5. So many questions! This time of year has my head filling up with them all too. Particularly when I put extra pressure on myself to force things along ahead of the natural course. Though, being around people that make me laugh and appreciate that it is more than okay for me to be a fucking dork is such a relief. Happy days are made a lot more natural when I don’t have to give a fuck about so much pressure.
    Yes to the travel carefreeness! Looking forward to seeing some of these adventures Em.
    x Jenelle
    http://www.inspiringwit.com

    • Love how you put this hun. Laughter and stress free days are much appreciated. So true about people keeping you grounded and those you can be yourself around, they’re the best xxx

  6. Pingback: 14+ Days | Life Update  | The Illusive Femme

  7. Pingback: P E R S O N A L : Cut yourself a break & those small wins.  | The Illusive Femme

Leave a Reply

Fill in your details below or click an icon to log in:

WordPress.com Logo

You are commenting using your WordPress.com account. Log Out / Change )

Twitter picture

You are commenting using your Twitter account. Log Out / Change )

Facebook photo

You are commenting using your Facebook account. Log Out / Change )

Google+ photo

You are commenting using your Google+ account. Log Out / Change )

Connecting to %s